Just so you know I thought you were a sucky year. From start to finish you haven't been very kind. As you are breathing your last breath, I wanted you to know that I wanted to dig a hole, shove you in, and then dance on your grave.
And that was just by summer time.
While that sounds a bit extreme for me, it did remind me of someone. After pondering for a few moments who could be that mean and cruel, it dawned on me. It sounds so much like you, 2009. All the promises of something new and wonderful only to be the pit of despair and smell like old dirty socks.
You have to admit, you have the sneer of angst coming your way. With Hubs starting and ending on unemployment and all the mess that has brought with it, you have left a bad taste in our mouths, 2009.
I will concede on a few points as there was a slight glimmer here and there sprinkled throughout the year. The war of Nerf was a huge hit. I hear tomorrow there is going to be another epic battle. We've had nothing but great visits from the in-laws all year. Been blessed with the shopping anointing, had the in-laws bailed us out - again. Both Hubs and I have been battling major giants and have slowly been making progress on crawling out of our graves. There was even a break from my folks.
But true to form, you managed to smash that to pieces as your final kick out the door. Not to mention being forced to file for bankruptcy. On my good days I don't think about being homeless.
I would like to think there were more good moments than bad but that wouldn't be the case with my over active imagination. While it is late and my mind is a bit fuzzy, I still say it has not been a good year.
You have brought us many days of pain, lots of tears, as well as fears. Sure the bonfire of 09 will go on to plague Hubs but in his defense that was one of the worst days we had all year. You may even try to say that it exposed his hidden talents of drop-kicking but I say that is just a ploy on your part to muddy the waters.
In short, it has felt like a year of grieving. One very long drawn out graveyard experience. It has also been very humbling. People I thought would care - didn't, and people I thought wouldn't care - did. Reminds me of the time when I was a kid and fell off my bike and a neighbor lady ran out and helped me. Her son hated my guts and went out of his way to torment me but she helped when I had a bloody nose and a chipped tooth.
In a weird sort of way, 09 has been like that. I feel bloody and chipped. There is the bitterness of being kicked to the curb and the surprise of who you find on the side of the curb.
What you don't know, 2009, is that while you have done your best to knock me out, I am still here. I am still moving forward. And you can't stop that. I'm coming out of this grave.
While we face a lot of unknowns in the next couple of months - things that have rocked me to my core - today, right this moment, I can say, "It is well with my soul". I have no clue how I will be in a few hours, tomorrow, or the next day but right now I'm holding on to it.
I hope in God. I hope 2010 goes well. I hope things will work out even though I have no clue.
I can say from experience that the sting of this year will fade away as it always does. I just hope it fades quickly. And I know as I hope, it will help.
So good-bye 2009! May you never repeat yourself, Mr. Stinky McStinkerton.